Saturday, October 3, 2015

Dreams can come true

So excited to start the next chapter of my life! 
My life goals in 2013 were:
1. Write and publish a fiction book (Done 2014)
2. Travel and hike
-Grand Canyon (Done 2014)
3. Inspire, mentor and/or teach others (In 2016!)

Saturday, September 26, 2015

What do you really want?

    How do we know what our deepest desires are? I was at an event where the speaker asked us, "If God asked you right now what you want, what would you say?" At first I thought that was an easy question, but then I realized a few things. First off, what I want has changed over the years. Before my children were born, I would have begged for children and a family. Then once I was a mother, I probably would have asked God for just a little time for myself, just to go for a run or read a book. So now as I get older and my daughters are in college and graduating, what would I ask for today? Which brings me to my next thought. Would my request need to be solely for me? Everyone has their own free will and choices, so can I ask for happiness and joy for my daughters? What if my choices for them aren't their choices for themselves. Could I ask God for what I want for them? If I need to ask just for myself, what would I say? I would like to pursue my dreams, but specifically what are those dreams. 

My life goals in 2013 were:
1. Write and publish a fiction book
2. Travel and hike
  -Grand Canyon
3. Inspire, mentor and/or teach others

   I wrote and published a book called Riding Waves in 2014, as well as went to the Grand Canyon that year, so once again, "If God asked me right now what would I say?" Would my answer be that I want to sell more books and have success? Really? Would that be my answer to God? Then the next question that comes to mind is "What was my motive for writing them?" Is money the reason I wrote them? No. Why do I want to sell books? Why do I want to have success in my career? Money does come to mind, but that is not all. Sure I would like to pay my bills, have a little money to travel and to save a little for the future. All things that I can't do right now. But what motivates me to write? Books have been an escape for me; they have been entertainment; they have taught and educated me, but they have also helped and guided me. Books and words make me think, make me feel and make me dream. In writing my books, I wanted to express myself, but really I wanted my words to touch others, so my answer to God would be: I want to reach, help, inspire and give hope to others by any means that I can, maybe my books can be the way.

Saturday, August 8, 2015

No perfection

   I read a motivational quote recently that stated that we should all strive for continuous improvement, instead of looking to be perfect. I felt uplifted by that, yet as I reflected on it, I could not understand how to apply it to life. Who decides what can be labeled "improvement"? What degree of improvement is enough? How do we aim for improvement if we aren't striving to be perfect? I don't want to make mistakes. I want to be the best person that I can be. I want others as well as myself to succeed, but I have more understanding when others mess up than I am on myself.  I know that rationally no one nor anything can be perfect yet that is what I want for myself.

Sunday, August 2, 2015

Suppression book by Susan Marie Schulhof

    Suppression is a futuristic novel set in 2135, during a period of time when humankind is making major advances in communicating with one another and even traveling through thoughts alone. Twenty-four year old, Peyton Milner, lives with her parents and her brother in one of the few civilizations remaining and thriving in what is left of America after everything and everyone was almost obliterated by war. Peyton has been raised to place vast significance on one’s intelligence and the power of reasoning and logic in all decisions. She has a plan and purpose for her life until she and her best friend, Reese, wander into a local Art Gallery where she meets Dallas. She is drawn to him and to the sunsets he paints in ways that she can’t describe, ways that contradict all common sense and rationale.

Saturday, August 1, 2015

Find purpose and meaning

    I have been struggling for years to understand the purpose and meaning of my life? Why am I here? What am I suppose to be doing? I love being a mom, but my daughters are all grown. I enjoyed being an infant teacher for thirteen years, but I was ready for a promotion. I get satisfaction and pleasure from being an Education Coordinator, but is this my purpose? Is this what I am suppose to be doing with my days? As I was walking out of a meeting today, it occurred to me that possibly, I am putting too much pressure on my family, as well as my career to be more than it is intended to be. Although there are many people whose purpose and career are aligned, does it need to be? Maybe my career just provides the means for me to pay the bills, so that perhaps I can discover and do my true purpose. I am taking the pressure off, and relaxing into the moment of now.

Saturday, July 25, 2015

Excerpt of Suppression by Susan Marie Schulhof

Friday December 31, 2134
   I look at the gray envelope with the dark red ink in my hand. It was delivered one week ago to everyone over the age of sixteen. I turn it over and over in my hand looking at the front and at the back for any marking that I might have missed, as I have done, every day since I received it.

On the front of the envelope is printed simply:

Peyton Milner
100 Year Celebration of World Unification
Do not open until January 1, 2135
when instructed

Take the good with the challenges

   Let's reframe the phrase, "Take the good with the bad." Why do we need to define events and situations in our lives as bad? Just like other people, I have definitely had my ups and downs in my life. The times that would be defined as "the good" would be my wedding, my three children, traveling, a close family, as well as my writing my books. What could I define as "the bad"? In many ways, the same exact situations would be the bad. I ended up divorced; I worry about my children; there are always problems when traveling; maintaining a close family takes work and at times sorrow, and writing surely has it's joys and despair. These "bad" situations, events and even so called "evil" people have taught me so much about life, about others as well as about myself. How can I label anything as bad or evil if it produces so much good? Instead, in the future, I choose to "Take the good with the challenges."